Saturday, February 26, 2005

Blessings...Announcements... So I’m procrastinating… I should be studying for my exams in surgery and virology next week… but I’m not. It’s been a very full day- Heather and I went to the 34th annual corn belt cow calf conference in Pella IA today; I really needed a little "outing" I think- easy to get demoralized amidst academia. At any rate, I’m rearing to go again, so I guess that’s a good thing. I was reminded again last week that I need to keep a good attitude about school and life in general, I only know too well how easy it is to get into a negative spiral. I have much to be thankful for. Speaking of which, heather and I decided to make the big announcement this last week… yes we are expecting our first little one towards the end of next August. Very exciting, still seems almost surreal… it’s been rough for heather, lots of nausea and headaches- I feel rather worthless at relieving her discomfort at times- but she’s a real trooper; I don’t think I could keep half the good attitude she does were I in her shoes. Aside from that side of things, the entire experience has been wonderful- I can hear our baby’s heart beating now, we often just lay in bed taking turns listening with my stethoscope… so amazing. The prospect of fatherhood is both wonderful and terrifying… It is a wonderful feeling to watch one’s dreams coming true before one’s eyes, and yet realizing the tremendous responsibility that comes along for the ride. God certainly has ways of making us learn to trust Him more. I’ve tried to do that more… trust Him that is… I was thinking about the idea of peace recently- remembering verses like "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, who’s mind is stayed on thee"… We had a lecture last week on the subject of self care… the guest lecturer was saying that stress occurs when demands are greater than resources... I was just realizing that for the Christian, we have an unlimited resource in God, I need to focus more on this. I’ve taken to using the ten minutes or so between classes more effectively of late… I used to, like everyone else, read the paper, talk with classmates, organize notes, and stare into space, but now I use the time to pray… everyone else thinks I’m just tired… lol. It may seem like such an obvious simple thing, this idea of staying one’s mind on God, but it’s so easy to get out of the habit of doing just that… God becomes like a rich uncle- only called on in times of dire need… when He should be our first resource turned to, the harbor sought quickest. Life has settled into a rather rapid pace here- seems like the weeks fly by; I just realized last week that after spring break there are only six weeks of school left before my last summer break… and suddenly I’m into the last year of my didactic veterinary education. This is a remarkable good feeling… like I’m finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This is a good thing. But I ramble… I do care that anyone reads this, in case you wondered- and I do appreciate it when people comment (hint hint). I understand if no one comes here very often. Would it help if I started an email list to notify when I update? What does my readership think? It’s pretty obvious that this blog gets much less attention than it used to- but hey, if I had to choose between the way my life is now, and how it used to be… God has been so good to me. Grace and peace, Ben

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