Sunday, November 02, 2003

Well, I'm not sure what happened- but as any of you who've attempted to access my website will attest, my space on the web is for some reason inaccessible. I got an email from David (wait... Why did I link to that... His site is my parent site... Both are down. Sigh.), my web designing guru friend, communicating to me that he doesn't know what's going on with the server either. Hmm.

I was browsing through my blog posts and was struck by how many times I am posting extremely late at night. I've noticed a severe switch in my peak energy levels since I entered college nearly four years ago (boy it sounds weird to say that- heh). When I was young I was such a morning person it was almost scary... I was like that all through my adolescent years. For some reason when I entered university I somehow became much more of a night person and much less of a morning person. I find that some of my most productive hours are the ones referred to as "wee". I am trying to change that though... The profession and branch thereof I have chosen to enter is far more likely to require early mornings than late nights... Who am I kidding- it'll be late nights too :^P.

I realized last week how little time I have left till Thanksgiving break... Officially 19 days as of today. This is phenomenally encouraging to me... I really am looking forward to the holiday season this year. They say absence makes the heart fonder and boy am I ever finding that to be true! I'm finding myself missing things that I never thought I'd miss... Little things, like the feeling of warmth and familiarity I used to experience when walking into my favorite Chinese restaurant with my friend, the happy satisfaction I used to feel after putting in a full day plus a couple hours staying late to help with an emergency at the vet clinic. It's things like walking into my brothers and my apartment and going out to get pizza because we were both too tired to cook, the feeling of freedom I used to feel pulling out onto the interstate to head north to home every Friday after class. If there's one thing I think I've slowly started to understand, it's what my mom was talking about when she used to tell me to slow down and enjoy every stage of my life. Change hurts sometimes... Familiarity is comfortable... I've noticed that this past semester more than I ever have in my entire life I think. I'm trying hard to be more aware of the things I will look back fondly on in ten years... It's a hard habit to get into, but a worthwhile one it seems. How true it is that Godliness with contentment is great gain- it is so easy to fall into the trap of always looking ten years, five years, even one semester in the future- longing for the things that will all to soon be upon us. There seems to be much blessing to be experienced by just trusting God, and living, loving, and learngin one day at a time. Thankful for my many blessings and wishing you all the more, I am,
Ben

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